Saturday, October 25, 2008

Locks of Love




Donated my hair for the second time! This is only the second time I've ever cut my hair in my life! A friend from church (who is a professional) cut my hair for a tip. It turned out nice and someone who needs my hair more than I do will get it.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Health Insurance and trusting God

As of January we won't qualify for state insurance anymore. I've wanted to be off of it for ages! The problem is that while we won't qualify for free insurance anymore, we won't be able to afford to buy our own either. We are just getting to a place where we can buy food and clothing and pay rent without worrying about where the money will come from. If we were to buy insurance it would cost us around $500 a month minimum. Where does that come from? Dh would have to get a third job just to afford insurance! That sure wouldn't help our family. He wouldn't be able to see us ever, it would be hard on him, on our marriage, and on our family. Two jobs is already hard. I didn't mention the co-payments and deductibles either. There's no telling how much that would add up to.

Health care is outrageously expensive in this country. I'm sure it is everywhere, but does it need to be? I'm all for people getting paid what they are due and getting rich, but at the expense of others? It doesn't seem right. I think there needs to be a way for the rich to help the poor, without welfare. I love the example in the Bible, the rich field owners were to leave the corners of their fields for the poor to gather food for themselves. They were also to only glean a field once, so that the poor could go along behind them and pick what was left over. I have seen fields of perfectly good pumpkins smashed to bits because they don't want people coming through and taking them. There's no telling how many people that could feed!

I know, I know, regulations, safety concerns, laws, and all that. It just doesn't seem right though.

I consider us pretty frugal people. We recycle, we buy mostly generic, we shop at discount stores and thrift stores, we cloth diaper, we budget, we do without, I save the boys clothes that they grow out of to hand down to their younger brothers, we eat a lot of beans and rice, we only have local phone service and use our .01 cent per minute phone card for long distance calls, Dh does a lot of the work to our van himself, we plan out our shopping trips to maximize our fuel economy, I use half the soap to wash the laundry. I'm sure there may be more we could do, but we do pretty well.

There really is no where to cut back so that we can buy insurance. We really aren't even saving money right now, because there really isn't any to save.

It is a frustrating situation, and I'm inclined to continue ranting, but there is something better that I must do. I must pray. I must rely on the Lord. I must trust that God knows our situation and He has a plan. If we trust in Him, and allow Him to work His plan in our lives, whatever the outcome, it will be the best thing for us.

Thursday, October 16, 2008

YES on Proposition 8!

I am voting Yes on California's prop 8. I don not believe that any relationship has the right to be called marriage except that between 1 man and 1 woman. God made them male and female. Adam and Eve. Marriage is His design and we have no right to redefine it.

The way our country is going I truly believe it is only a matter of time before homosexual marriage is legal in all 50 states. But I am still going to stand up for what is right. This battle may be lost, but God has already won the war! If this battle is won, I think it will only be temporary. But God still wins in the end.

I absolutely do not hate "gays". They are sinners just like everyone else. They need to repent and be saved, just like everyone else. I do think that this sin is particularly damaging to a person though. There are just certain sins that do worse damage. Sin is sin as far as it all separates us from God, but certain sins damage us as people more in the process of living in them.

There is salvation from this and all other sins. There is only one sin that will not be forgiven, and that is the one of rejecting God, rejecting the free gift of salvation.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Boys coming out my ears!

At least that's what a woman at the park told me I have.

Its true I suppose, there are a lot of them. 4 isn't so huge a number though. I know many people with more kids. I have one friend with 6 boys and 2 girls. 4 is just enough to not be a small family, and just barely enough for some to consider us a large family, though not quite enough for others.

I have always wanted a large family. I never expected to have all boys though! I was just thinking tonight how different they are than girls. I think about how I was as a child and how differently I saw things from the way my boys see things. I mothered my siblings and other kids I played with. The boys are more about beating each other to the top of the dog pile! I loved dancing around in dress-up clothes. The boys love running around getting muddy in dress-up clothes. (Not that I never got muddy).

Some days its a lot of fun having 4 boys, other days I feel like I'm drowning in testosterone. I find that I like "pretty" things a lot more now than I used to. I enjoy the company of women more than I used to. Maybe because all I get at home is boy games, boy toys, boy messes, boy play.

Don't get me wrong, I don't mean to complain, I am thankful for each one of the precious boys God has blessed me with! I wouldn't trade a one of them! I am not up for the challenge of raising them to be godly young men, not on my own, but with my dear husband by my side, and the Lord Jesus leading us, I know we can do it.

Perhaps someday the Lord will bless us with a few more sons, or maybe even daughters (though I doubt I will ever bear a daughter). I have prayed and will continue to pray that the Lord will lead us to adopt one day, and that it will be in His time and in His way.

I may never have daughters of my own, but I figure I ought to get a few daughter-in-laws one of these days, should the Lord tarry. If I do, I pray I'll be a good and loving mother-in-law to them.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Slept in

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, woke up at 6 AM. Spend time with the Lord, took a walk, and then started my day. Today I decided to sleep in since Dh had to go to work at 6. I slept till 8. Boy did I need that!

I want to go back to getting up at 6 tomorrow though. I think its good for me. Hopefully it will become a habit.

Monday, October 6, 2008

My poor baby

I scheduled J's dentist appt. to get all of his teeth filled. I feel so bad that he's got so many cavities. His appt. is for 3 days before Christmas! That was the soonest they had. Although I hate to have it done so close to Christmas, I'd rather not wait any longer. I need to take him and S to the Pediatrician on Wednesday for their check ups. The hospital told me that he cannot be sick for his appt. If he gets sick any time in the two weeks before his appt. we'll have to postpone it. Sigh. I hope we can keep him well!

Being a parent is such a lot of work.

Goodmorning!

Wow! I did it! I got up at 6:07 AM, spent some time with the Lord, took a walk by myself, checked my email and now its 7:25 AM and I'm about to make breakfast.

I hope I can keep this up, it really felt great! (Even though I'm a little sleepy still). Hopefully I'll be tired enough to make myself go to bed early tonight.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Fireproof

This was an awesome movie!!! NOT for little kids though. I'd say its probably appropriate for teens though. It is totally clean but the subject matter is of an adult nature.

This movie deals with marriage, adultery, pornography, lust, covetousness, selflessness, love, commitment, and respect. It is about a husband and wife who have grown apart and are ready to get divorced. The husband's father steps in and asks "is there any part of you that wants to save this marriage?". He then challenges his son to wait 40 days before getting the divorce. He then sends his son a journal called the "Love Dare". Each day for 40 days it tells him something to do to try and win his wife back. She rejects him at every turn. Finally he realizes that he has been rejecting God despite all of God's efforts to win him, and he turns to the Lord.

There were 3 very intense scenes in the movie, a fight between husband and wife, a car on a train track with an on coming train, and a house fire rescue. The one with the fight was the hardest to watch I think. It was much more intense than I expected. It gave me a sinking feeling. I don't think I've ever witnessed a fight like that. Not that I recall anyway. (Thank the Lord!).

I would recommend this movie to anyone who is married or getting married, or hopes to get married one day!

The most important and life changing message in this movie is the one of Jesus Christ and the salvation that He offers. The story in this movie may be fictional, but the message of Jesus is as real as it gets!

October

September is over, what a long month! All 30 days of it anyway. We went up North for Grandma's funeral, 12 hours there and 12 hours back in the van. We'll go up again for my sister's wedding at the end of this month!

Saw the movie "Fireproof". I'll have to give it its own blog entry, so I won't go into it now.

My weight at the end of Sept. was 179. Not what I wanted. This month I'm going to try something different. I'm not going to weigh in until the day before I leave for the wedding. I'm not going to measure anything, or record minutes exercised. My goal is moderation in everything I eat and drink (except water). Most of all, I want to listen to the voice of the Lord. Grow in Him, read His word, and draw near to Him. I should go put away the scale now before I forget.

Took the boys to the dentist today. M has 3 cavities, G is cavity free!!!!!, and J has about 8 and needs to be put under for his treatment :( We got a referral to a hospital that will do it. I'm a little nervous about it but from what I've read he would have a much higher risk of getting seriously injured in a car accident than he has of being seriously harmed by the General Anesthetic. G is my best tooth brusher and I am so glad he didn't have any cavities. I hope that M will be motivated to brush his teeth better and more often. J is still little and doesn't really understand, I need to be more vigilant in taking care of his teeth.

I have bad teeth too. They got REALLY bad once I started having kids. The dentist told me she thinks that for some reason pregnancy affects my teeth more than most, but that it could be worse. The assistant told me I'm doing better than her, she has 3 kids and has lost 3 teeth, I've got 4 kids and have only lost 2. Sigh.

God is so good. He brings things about in our lives to draw us closer to Him. I didn't see it coming but I can see now how He has used MIL's stroke to draw us closer to Him. Praise the Lord! He is good and His Mercy endures forever!